SELF-ESTEEM or OTHERS’ ESTEEM
Those days in the Church, whenever it was offering time and I didn’t have money on me, I felt very shy to raise my empty hand for prayers. But these days, I do transfer and when it is offering time, I can’t raise my phone but confidently raise the “empty” hand.
Those times I felt shy, why did I feel shy? Because I feel people would be looking at me somehow for lifting an empty hand? But now, have they stopped looking at me somehow? But I don’t care because I know in my mind that I have the money.
I shouldn’t have felt bad those days because the issue of offering should have just been between me and my God. So, the problem was with me and not with them. Because, now I still raise the same hands and I feel good.
It is called self-esteem and not others’ esteem. Don’t judge yourself by what others think or feel about you. Most times, those people don’t even notice you. What you think they are thinking is just what you are thinking about yourself.